So time has come to say goodbye, the clock was always ticking,
I guess, while I still don’t see much light, stay for a while,
And discover this place they call home.
And tears come like Niagara Falls,
As I shall have to leave behind so much,
Like a new reborn infant, I am departure for good,
To a better place, they say?
I shall learn to put my trust in his hands, the same ones,
Who hold me, blood dripping from our flesh?
My dear Sybil, we were for so long together,

Baby tonight I am dressing down, to neutral black,
And walk the long way to the cemetery,
Where I shall not only put to rest your memory
But I shall watch the earth swallow my all family,
A past, a life…
But I know there is nowhere to go,
Or so it feels as this time,
Hoping one day, I shall verse about recovery and the joy,
I never really dare to dreams!

So the first book has end for good,
And there is no pretend to try to reads the same old stain pages one more time,
I shall run from breaths, to be free!
Joy and serenity shall be my new robe,
My new perfume,
The food to swallow and spit the bitter taste,
I once had a brother, but it seems the end has come to put him to rest,
I wish I could change it all,
But time has run for me and if I expire,
Our story shall never know,
I lived like a ghost for too long.
And the cold breath has arrived upon my neck!

Live or died, whisper the clock,
The one we share so often, to wake up to some bizarre land of us,
Remember those days, we never had and some more,
Smile and let the tears from mother earth,
Back to the bones,
Ashes turn to flesh,
I know I am leaving you for good…
Souvenirs turn to blood,
But while I am blind,
I know a new illumination shall erupt in my mind,
Apart from you,
This is one of the saddest evenings of my life,
So many memories collected through the years,
In some cyber world, shall be close by Sunday night.

I will leave a link, to some adobe acrobat for the ones,
Who might found the new journey interesting?
I shall never truly discuss the past,
Like a old prayer,
All my life shall be like an old book,
Laid to rest till the end of the days,
This is hard already to write those words,
Time to say leave-taking.

It could have being shorter and simple,
But u were never either of those,
I guess I did hold the knife that fatal night!
I loved you in my way,
But it was time to leave,
And tonight I am simply digging your old grave,
And burn your bones,
So be it,
Disintegration dust to dust,
As I stand against this wind,
Just so close to the cliff,
As u ashes falls to the bottom of the ocean!

I know the formula,
Smile and laugh,
I try this afternoon, it work like gems in some cloudy night,
Like stars who was never means to be there and just disappear,
Remember one; last time, those nights, when we laid on the grass,
Watching shooting stars,
This was true love
But most beautiful things never last,
All beauty must died,
So darling don’t await for me,
As you shall make my heart CRY
U know how the tears flooded inside me,
On last goodbye, London doll,
Tomorrow, tomorrow…
Forgiving is not forgetting,
You were the dreams I took away the same one,
Who hold me in those terrible nights?
And for those times, I shall never forget,
But if I carry you anymore,
I shall died too,
And I truly think, you do not wish to hold this knife,
Let me be the one, who shall keep this terrible secret,
I guess we shall meet, when I fall to the ground,
So the battle of the titans shall have end it,
And the world shall be fills with beauty and love,
This is how I wish to remember,
So run fast to this place,
I won’t be that long…

The same lover we share,
As took a hold of me,
And to be honest, I do not know the beginning,
I am all alone, and shall be for eternity,
I cut through the skin!
I must let go, and breathe without feeling your lungs next to me,
Like some hot air balloons,
Going up and going down,
There is much crashes I can take,
So I swear in this playground we share, this is goodbye…

So it is,
I have taken the last doll,
From the game we both share,
But you knew it would never last,
Yes I loved them all,
Those tragedies shall be the board of chest,
But the king is moving from his queen,
The party has finally ended it,
Or almost, it must be say…
I almost loose,
But murder was on my mind,
Obviously, one has to loose

There is no shame or more fighters,
This new journey is neutral,
This is true love my darling,
Not only shall I live for you but most of all,
All those ghosts shall always waiting for my falls,
And while I shall not forget,
I will try my best to live for myself, please allowed me this favour,
I never truly love, or being selfish?
I want somebody to hold me and know this is real,
No more masks,
No more excuses, to escape,
It will hurt but it will,
In my dysfunctional mind,
Freedom,
The way I was taken away as a child,
And yes, I did loved this dark alleys ways,
But murder must one day cease,
Murder of oneself is hard for the ones,
The single minded watching from their balcony,
U perishing, so I am about to try to make smile
I know I can….

These goodbyes are lasting for so long but I guess
They deserve a book!
Shame I am too tired, shame I lost so much energy over it,
Maybe tomorrow, but Sunday, I shall bided this book,
And start the fire of the day,
It shall burn to ashes!
And like a geisha boy, I shall stand, watching the wind,
Taking my past away to the bottom of the ocean,
And turn back,
They won’t be anymore dreams, but reality,
Days away for this minutes,
The second is too close,
If I fails, we know, it won’t be anymore chance,
The game shall be over for good!

So my last words shall be for the ones I have love and shall,
Those words are for the ones,
Who still believe in me and kiss me in this new journey,
If one sings to wish me luck, will be enough if any,
It won’t matter.
It will be a little harder to start!
But any journey in the desert,
Bare feet’s expect the blood to spurred for a while,
While I shall never be flawless…
The bird cage has taken a decision….

Sunday remember, no choice,
This is not the end of a life, but an era,
So I shall be the one,
They call Herve,
Not Margot, no Elvis,
Ghost I can see disintegrating,
As I type those words…
Welcome to meet me!!!!

This is real love….

COPRYGHT@2007.HERVE. NAUDET.

The need for a choice has come, as I find out today.
There is no justice I feel, while I have been depraved for so long of speech and stay in the shadow, they have again falls for u stories!
I wonder if they managed to change his mind with the same sweet words they feed me or simply give him a hot shot!

Either way, I was strangely surprise to be told they was no need for detention shall we call it! Poor soul, (make me want to be sick!) want to changed apparently, how many time did I ever heard the same lies!
So we shall see.

At least one thing is sure; the choice has become narrow, life or death! He has decided while in transit, to focus on life…hummmm sound too good to be true, if one ask me!
From tomorrow, London doll has u like to be call, shall be no more!
I guess I have no power to stop them and shall reliantly give u back the space u made urself, but remember my dear H, I shall be watching every move, there is no place for mistakes this time!
I know how does it feel, I begged for mercy and crawled on the floor, did u come to help?

The program is working well! It that what they call it, the program! But as we both know they are nothing we can do, or battle with.
What was the bargain? U promise to secrecy?
Well, as I told them, If I did not find out u little secret garden, secret shall have been spill by now, I reckon!

Oh well, at least we shall be sharing one thing, the void and the ultimate price of what “we are and did!”
The next 3 months shall be hell but then again, I have spend a lifetime there waiting for u to rescue me and what did u do, indulged in you silly romantic ideas instead!
Remember without me u is nothing and when u type u next entry, u shall always see those words haunting u!

Have u wonder what shall become of me this time?
Oh I forgot u actually; apparently, ask for me to be…free, kind of hard to be, don’t u think, as u have always hold the ropes! Oh yes again, it was out of love as they told me…hummmm.
I could have took over and I have not say my last word…remember, if u fails, they won’t be anymore doll, I don’t dwell in the past, I live for the present and like I spoke last night for the hope to take over, u mess, somebody has to be good as keeping secret!

U has disappointed me again.
I wonder how you are going to cope without u little friends u know the ones I spoke about?
Reality I believe his going to slap u in the face hard my dear!
At least I have one step ahead of you, remember this!
U place is no irreplaceable! No-one will ever know…

if only u had no left me, we would have beat them to the ground, by now we would be up there but u choose to be so humble and sweet, kind of sick don’t u think, specially after what u have sacrifice to be where u are…
Surely, u must have spoken about u mistakes, as we shall call it?!
Oh no, after reading u little web diary, I realised u have only mention what was convenient to you, but u are going to come clean.
How is u going to reveal the true, when you could never handle the true!

Did you speak about the true reason u are here, in some foreign country?
We both know u would not be anymore if u had stay, they would have dispose of you, u were a little too much to handle at the time, do u remember?
It was no so easy then!

May let me sing u a little song to put u to sleep at night…

“Once upon a time,
In u blissful ignorance,
U was dancing upon the grave,
Of what u thought was memories,
And memories took life,
And find you,
Sweet dreams they won’t be many left,
When I am finish with you…

Anyway unlike u, I won’t disclose u little dirty secret, I shall be seating and wait for you to do so, while having sworn to secrecy…kind of hard, but hey, remember once upon a time, I was in u shoes.
The difference, they always put u first!
Maybe I should have done the same and run away b4 it was too late and leaves my loves ones, but what kind of person that would have made me?
This is the question I shall leave u with!

COPYRIGHT@2007.M.N.

Bloody valentine, spurred on my skin,
Like the old wounds from the past!
As his brother I wonder what he did wrong.
He had it all!
While I was still struggling in the gutter!
Flesh, beauty and soul…
Creativity is weapon,
All seems like a waste tonight,
Or to be more precise few days ago!

I guess he was looking for help,
But he forgot one thing, silence was the ring,
The one and only thing who shall keep 1!
U knows who u are, as u read this!
Shall I call u Mister Indeed!
Silly Billy,
My brother was always far too romantic,
But most of all,
Stupid and shallow!
So be it!
It won’t be here…
For a while…

This is my turn!
Like it or lump it!
I am in!
He won’t be so hard after they take a good look at him,
He will be a puppy again…
The one I fuck with…
Oh yes, I am writing this for one person…/
As we have find is little game,
God I wish he kept his mouth shut!
But then again, I never really truly believe his love!

I was the one in the shadow, so be it,
U turn!
I am free and u is not!
U turns and as u always says,
What come round go round?
So enjoy the needles,
And the perfume of their poisons,
So u mind turn to the child,
U went too far this time!
Did u really think, we would not find out?
Baby, twins, or whatever u makes out,
We are here to protect u from ourselves…

So mister Indeed as he likes to call u,
I guess he had a hot spot for u,
Too bad, is too late,
He won’t be back…
U shall talk to me now!
Have u find the name, date and time?
I don’t think so…
Or would have been already writing some idiotic story,
If only u knew!

Don’t even try; this is my advice to u,
He will be back one day soon enough and nothing shall be spoke again….
For his sake, be keen,
Or we won’t be so tolerant this time!
It will be easy as he has spoke far too much,
To break the reflection, u knows what I mean!
I shall be the doll and the puppet master watch out!

COPYRIGHT@2007. M.N

A day to shine, u wore the last remains of your artifices!
Glitters and cheap Jewries,
Couple of pills and useRlllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllf…
So charming the man seating opposite you.
Did you ever wonder?
What I felt at this hour?
I am geisha boy.
Pains and pleasure hold the same kimono,
The same gold threads u having wearing…
Upon your work of art,
This neck so inviting,
To the oblivious of such blossom,
Like a diamond tear rolling….
I guess not so bad,
To be able to hold the same ghost,
The one u falls in love,
And this is not real love…
Look at us,
Dancing upon the moonstone,
Silver beings holding back,
Like u have something,
To hold on to be!
Oblivious, somewhere I got to be,
To feel so close from you,
And I wander, you still haunted me,
Do I have to sleep in the gutter to know?
The answer is there,
But the flesh is so weak!
Look at me, learn…
I can’t get ride of me under my skin!
Like some ancient memories,
While right now, I know where he is….
Oh yes….it hurt to think about it,
The arrows in his heart,
So deep, I in the middle of corpses,
Lying there, like me b4,
U promises me,
This is not real,
But I can still feel your kisses,
Your mouth kisses me like a real lover,
I felt your love,
Your urge, I felt wanted!
And I guess u just not strong enough to survive,
This, all life and love affairs in between,
So I shall be a geisha boy,
No tears no joy,
Beauty shall prevails,
I wish I will be free,
In the blizzard of the hazardous smokes,
Of us once upon a time,
I wish I could live this moment,
Again and again….
Soon, it will be forever….
Where nothing really died
Where nothing really mourns,
As we shall be close hands….
In the darkness of our palace,
The one, u keep repeating,
This beautiful stone, this carved tombstone,
This is US!!!!

COPYRIGHT@2007.H.NAUDET.MARGOT.