Ok let this Christmas be another memory!
After all, it was not so bad, I was lucky enough while in a blaze of pure madness and cocktails of colourful dolls and else, present from the devil, Jesus choose to take me to their paths!

Kind of ironic, for somebody who only few months ago was told and truly had faith he would be in heaven, food and lover for starter and more to saturation, I could go again, and more, like some hysterical magic spell! Scream my friend. No no no no no no no no no no no!!!!!!

But I would lied it if I ever say I did not enjoy sleeping on the floor of some dirty squat and wake up under some filthy duvet of some tramp, bless his 29 years soul, he still handsome despise the poison running through his arteries!
Despise the pain and his agony and dead illusion; he still managed to hold my freezing hands under the blanket, while I was shivering with hopes and broken dreams!

As a matter of fact, I would be lying if I say, I was ashamed!
I truly enjoy the Tramadol and the gentle caress upon my fingers.
I felt love!

The morning light, the sleepless hours, as we wake up to drink more and swallow more poison!
Did I care, not really I was free from the pain I felt for weeks and wanted to believe Christmas faith who care what it was…to these days/ nights, I shall see u again, and yes, there is no future for us, no tears, no regrets but chemical experimentations!

I am ready to jump p again the bridge of passion, as long as you are with me.
The gutter never felt so good, that night was the cosiest bed I could have chooses…
To never let go of you.

I like to think on the night of my weeding night I “fuck” the poors of this society and enjoy every minutes of it, if I shall be honest.
Was it to forget?
Or
Some new madness?

Take a pill baby, just remember the crude detail, how he enjoy his first “manly” experience with a men, your manhood who fit his mouth, to spit so much i Love you at the time….
Who care if I never really believe a word, we both know the name of the game!
Despair of the misfits!

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